I'm not sure whether i hate you right now or pity you. Maybe its a combination. You are a complete selfish jerk. I've come to the realization that you don't respect me at all. I don't regret what happened because the doors opened wider and it allowed me to see a clearer vision of you.

"Are you courageous enough to let go of everything that doesn't serve your happiness?"

Believe me i didn't lie when i said i still care about you.
I've been resisting myself all day from calling you.
I want to ask how you are feeling. I want to hear your voice. I want to make sure that you didn't fall asleep when you drove him from work. I want to tell you that i do miss you. I want to hug you and tell you to be strong. I wish so badly that i could give you an answer. Believe me i hate time.
But all i know is that i must be strong. It is for both of us. I didn't call to say these things because i didn't want to bring your hopes up. I think is it better if i give us this space. I need this space to ensure that i am certain that this is what i want. Believe me it is as difficult for me as it is for you. I beat myself over for the fact that i know we are both in pain. But i truly believe that this is for the best. This is going to be a huge adjustment for me. It's not going to be easy and i am aware of that from the start. There are so many memories of our relationship that i will forever cherish. There is no doubt how much this relationship has impacted me.
It really kills me inside and i can't help it but break down because everything reminds me of us. But this is part of the challenge. Please be strong and take care of yourself.
If we are meant to be, we'll be together again in time.

我很糊涂. 我有点怕.
想来想去觉得很烦.
时间不多了, 到底作什么才好呢?
世界阿, 给我停下来!
我需要多个时间想清楚一点!

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